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It's almost done! One more page to go and it will officially be a comic strip.

This was inspired by the recent engagement of Zerrie. I'm happy for them though. *pops confetti*

What's been going on lately.

Hello! Yes, I know and am aware that my irresponsibility had  been apparent recently. I'd promised a post about my birthday and I swear, I'm going to make it at some point. But for now, I got this.

I was given the pleasure of visiting the Mind Museum last Saturday, and it was all for free! The free things in life are the best, actually. I had so much fun with my sister, her boyf, and my brother. A photo of the four us, to follow.

Also, I had a lovely time with my HS buddies last Sunday and Monday! We didn't have classes last Monday since it was a holiday (too much "days"), so I had my very first sleep over. Woop~ woop~ bad ass na ako ngayon.

I had a super fun, fun time!!!!!

It's a good day to be alive

Hello there, fellow internet people. It has been days since I've aged a year older and have reached the legal age. Until now, I am still thankful of the wonderful wishes and messages you lovely people have sent me. I'd probably forgot some of it now, but one day I know I'll remember and you can count on that. 

But the thing is, the fact that "I'm already 18" honestly does not appeal much to me. It's probably because I'm still threading the water, getting used to it maybe. But you know, this doesn't really make much difference. I'm still going to be afraid and dependent. I still get to decide how I'll act and how I'll be. Sometimes, I can't help but question why people make such a big deal out of it. 

Anyway, I'm still thankful and hopeful. Maybe one day, I will be able to grasp and appreciate the essence of being 18. Maybe not until I get to be a beauty queen. *snorts*

Kind of sad, really.

I never liked throwing huge parties for my birthday. I just usually invite my closest friends.

For my 18th birthday, I decided to have a huge ass celebration thrown.

Half of the people I invited backed out and aren't going to come.

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At least I know what I don't want to do ever again

SISKY BUSINESS

And so today, I met 1/5 of the band The Academy Is...(and no, The Academy Was jokes aren't allowed here). My friends, Fiel and Mariel were with me too! We headed to Makati Shang at around past 9 and waited at the couch by the elevators. Carly Rae Jepsen passed by us twice but we ignored her, it's still funny when I think about it. A security guard also allowed his curiosity get to him and asked us what we were waiting for. The three of us took it the wrong way and thought he was trying to make us go out of the hotel. It turns out that he really just wanted to know who the "Adam" is that we were waiting for.

After 3-4 long hours of sitting and waiting for Sisky to come down, alas! The boy wearing a sky blue top emerges from the elevator and Fiel sort of slapped Mariel's thigh because she thought it was Sisky. It wasn't him, but he totally looked like him. I bet he's his brother or cousin/relative, because they looked almost alike. Anyway, we calmed down for about 20 seconds because after that the Sisky finally comes out of the elevator with his super cool Chicago something cap and Metallica shirt. 

Fiel wasted no time and said hi immediately. Mariel and I followed. Everything went by so coolly and not fast, I can almost remember every detail. Mariel was shaking, though. I would too, probably, except I was too busy admiring his perfect existence. Anyway, he was just incredible. I'm just going to type everything that happened.

• Fiel told him TAI was and is still her most favourite band. He was so surprised to see the three of us come up to him, I guess he was really not expecting us. And then he signed Fiel's and Mariel's albums but forgot to sign one.
• He apologised about TAI not being able to reach Manila before breaking up.
• He apologised for not telling where he's at, because it might cause trouble for Carly Rae Jepsen (he is so frikken pERFECT)
• He thanked us again and again for coming to find him and for TAI (I wanted to envelope him in a warm embrace and thank him too for everything)
• He gave Fiel his stripper name, but I can't reveal it yet.
• He said he and the guys were going to watch/hang out with FALL OUT BOY
• He took a picture with the three of us.
• HE SAID HE'LL BE BACK SO WE WAITED

While waiting, here is my photo with him!

Okay, so around 1:00 PM we decided to go out to wait for them. Finally, they came and we said hi again. Fiel asked him to sign the forgotten album and then I said hi to his Blue-eyed cutie companion/relative. I said "Hi again" to Sisky too and he asked us how we were doing. We all mumbled our response.

Finally, to end our wonderful journey, Fiel and I handed in our letters to Sisky and FOB. 

Me: Uhm wewroteyoualetter........a short letter and for Fall Out Boy too justincaseyoucomeacrosseachother THANK YOU.

Sisky: Will you be at the show tonight?

Fiel: ..............*stares at me and Mariel*

Mariel:......................*stares at me and Fiel*

Me:.........................*stares at Fiel and Mariel*

Sisky:.......................*stares at Fiel, Me and Mariel*

Fiel:....probably

And then we said our goodbyes, with hopes that we might still see him tomorrow or some other time. 

Today was a good day, I'm giving it a 4 out of 5 stars

Forever Missing Puzzle Piece

I've been posting too much texts in the blog lately, not that it matters that much though. It's probably just because I've had a lot of things running around inside my head. I can't quite put it into words properly.

Doesn't mean I'm going to try.

People are going to find it stupid when they find out that there's this huge vortex of lost, unguided thoughts and feelings in me. It's just there, sucking in unwanted and wanted emotions, making me feel entirely confused and uncertain of my life. Here's the part where people say "God, Camille. You sound so freaking stupid right now. Just enjoy life blah, blah, blah".

Do you really think that'd be a good thing to say? Think about it. Think.

There are people who constantly choose to brush things off because they can, and they can handle it. No empathy, sympathy, worry and just pure carelessness. Then there are people who tries to be indifferent and even force themselves to feel nothing, when they obviously can't. They feel for other people so much because they just do, it's what builds them as a person.

People like me. 

It's to keep myself from being attached, from caring. Naturally, it comes off as rude to me when I don't try to show appreciation towards something or someone. Probably because I believe in reasons so much, that everything and everyone just has purpose. It all simply matters. 

I'm losing you, please stay with me.

So I sound like a whiney, sensitive 17-year-old who obviously have problems. If that offends, bothers, annoys you, then stay away. Unless you want to matter to me, then step all over my existence then I'm not going to rid you of your rights. But to save you from all that work, then you should just probably walk away.