This is about all the times I've failed to do the most important thing in friendship: being there.
I guess now, I can officially say that I'm one of those people who(m?) are really bad at keeping friends. It's ironic though, because friendships are so important to me yet I keep failing at taking care of it. Somehow, I always have a tendency to forget and then feel neglected after. It's sad to say that I'm at fault most of the time because I keep forgetting, but it doesn't mean that I don't try not to.
Try. Try. Try. Try not to forget.
It's as if my brain's programmed to temporarily block the important things from my brain and indulge me with things that aren't so important at all. I don't know why it happens, but it always does. And I've been keeping myself reminded that, out there, I have friends. And those friends are going to need me, too. One day, they're going to come to me and ask for something. And I have to help them in whatever way I can.
But then I forget. I just keep on forgetting again and again, it's so frustrating. God, or whoever/whatever it is up there, only knows how much I try to be the friend. But I keep making mistakes, and the mistakes would just keep piling up until I'm nothing but the worst friend ever.
So I'm sorry, for not being there to do you a favor or answer your questions, or share to you my thoughts or flail with you about this guy you met a day ago.
I honestly can't be the friend, but I'm trying as hard as I can.